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Your words should reflect your heart!

Now it`s time for me to relax…..I am here at Maremagnum, listening to the sound of the birds, the street music, people talking, and of course, I have my headphones on, listening to my new favourite song from Maroon 5 ”Don`t wanna know”. It makes me feel better, at least for the moment…. makes me forget about all what happened the last days….I really needed a few hours for myself out of my bedroom, out of the kitchen, out of the usual. This is my time to think things through and maybe try to find a solution? Or at least get used to the idea that I screwed up.

I am supposed to write my first article, but the view caught my eye and I started taking photos like a crazy person:)) after all that has happened in the last few days, I am happy to be here enjoying the sun, the sea, the 23 degrees Celsius on this beautiful day (23 Oct) #23on23. I needed this, the fresh air helps clear my head and not think about the total disaster this weekend.

It`s a beautiful Sunday and I plan to take pleasure in it fully. This weekend, was definitely not what I expected it to be, but at least I got a new lesson: life can`t be always planed and things might not turn out how you want them to, and the only thing for you to do is just live with that. I feel sorry for what happened, and I never want another experience like that ever again.

Here is where it all starts, here is where I am officially writing my first article on Mozzaique. The autumn breeze, still warm here in Barcelona, the sun heating up the ground and the sea with this unique shade of greenish-blue makes everything feel perfect. Tourists all around taking pictures and videos, feeding the birds or just walking, they are all part of this amazing view I am having right now. There is no such thing as perfection, but there are things in life I am thankful for and appreciate. Even though the weekend was an epic fail, at least this Sunday moment right here, right now, is close enough to perfection. 

I was thinking about a sentence someone told me today: your words should reflect your heart, and well this weekends events definitely did not reflect my heart, actually the words did, the actions`s didn`t. I said something and did exactly the opposite. How stupid can I be? At least I got my lesson, I am never doing something like this again, never ever in my life. I really want my words and actions to reflect my heart and to be true. I can`t go back time and make things right for what happened, but I can avoid these kind of situations in the future.

There is nothing I hate more than people who are not true to their word, and I was that person this weekend. God! NO! I realized I am so angry at myself, but it`s going to go away, it has to…….breath in, breath out and say: POSITIVITY! Again! Breath in, breath out! Positivity! No bad stuff! Okey. Good. 

We are humans and we can be influential or influenced! Never let others influence you when you know what it`s best. Just do things your way, don`t mind others….Of course, find people you look up to and let them influence you in a good way, those are mostly called mentors, but this is another story, what I mean is that there are situations when you tend to back of and think that maybe the other person is right even though in your heart, you know you are. Well dearies, let me give it to you straight:

DO IT YOUR OWN WAY!

No more insecurities, no more second thoughts, no more backing of, just go for it. Be strong and get what you want. No one knows you better than you do, this is surely something you have heard before, but it`s true. If someone tells you it`s bad to do something they might be right, but they think from their own point of view, which means that yes, it`s not ok for them to do that, but maybe for you it is.

What I want to highlight here is that it`s in the human nature to be different, this leads to different thinking and to different needs, so, find out things for yourself, no matter what the others think, want or do. You are you, unique, even though there are more than 7 Billion other humans on this planet, not a single one of them is like you, got that? So better get up and make your own decisions, do your thing and do it best! 

So dearies, I gotta go feed the fish in the sea, I`ll leave you with some pictures from where I am writing this article and I hope that reading it helps you understand how special you are. 

Here`s a song that makes me feel better whenever I am sad:

“Believe in me” by Demi Lovato:

I'm losing myself, trying to compete
With everyone else
Instead of just being me
Don't know where to turn
I've been stuck in this routine
I need to change my ways instead of always being weak

I don't want to be afraid I want to wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay cause everyone's perfect in an usual way
So see I just want to believe in me

The mirror can lie doesn't show you what's inside
And it can tell you your full of life its amazing what you can hide
Just by putting on a smile

I don't want to be afraid I want to wake up feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay cause everyone's perfect in an usual way
So see I just want to believe in me

I'm quickly finding out
I'm not about to break down
Not today

I guess I always knew that I had all the strength to make it through
I cannot be afraid I want to wake feeling beautiful today
And know that I'm okay cause everyone's perfect in an usual way
You see, now, now I believe in me

Now I believe in me.

. . .  and this guys, this is BARCELONA!

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